<?xml version='1.0' encoding='utf-8' ?>
<!--  If you are running a bot please visit this policy page outlining rules you must respect. http://www.livejournal.com/bots/  -->
<rss version='2.0' xmlns:lj='http://www.livejournal.org/rss/lj/1.0/'>
<channel>
  <title>REAL Life.</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/</link>
  <description>REAL Life. - LiveJournal.com</description>
  <lastBuildDate>Mon, 24 Jul 2006 04:40:12 GMT</lastBuildDate>
  <generator>LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com</generator>
  <lj:journal>steph_suicide</lj:journal>
  <lj:journaltype>personal</lj:journaltype>
  <image>
    <url>http://p-userpic.livejournal.com/39654046/9159465</url>
    <title>REAL Life.</title>
    <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/</link>
    <width>100</width>
    <height>99</height>
  </image>

<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/12795.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Mon, 24 Jul 2006 04:40:12 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Sounds true..</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/12795.html</link>
  <description>&lt;center&gt;&lt;table align=&quot;center&quot; cellpadding=&quot;3&quot; style=&quot;background: #FFFFFF; border: 1px solid black;&quot;&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td align=&quot;left&quot; width=&quot;300&quot;&gt;&lt;font color=&quot;#000000&quot;&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;h1&gt;The Picto-Personality Test&lt;/h1&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src=&quot;http://www.quizgalaxy.com/result_images/head-map.jpg&quot; /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;You are a person who is very ambitious, and constantly thinking of ways to further your own goals.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;When alone, you are introspective.  You constantly reflect on your life and the world.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;You are romantic, and when you are with your partner you like to woo them with your imagination.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;In the future you will be happy and live richly.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td align=&quot;center&quot; style=&quot;background: white; color: black;&quot; width=&quot;300&quot;&gt;&lt;a style=&quot;color: black; text-decoration: none;&quot; href=&quot;http://www.quizgalaxy.com/quiz.php?id=71&quot;&gt;Take this Test&lt;/a&gt; at &lt;a style=&quot;color: black; text-decoration: none;&quot; href=&quot;http://www.quizgalaxy.com&quot;&gt;QuizGalaxy.com&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;/table&gt;&lt;/center&gt;</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/12795.html</comments>
  <lj:music>sublime</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>tired</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/10737.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Sun, 11 Jun 2006 20:17:22 GMT</pubDate>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/10737.html</link>
  <description>amazing weekend :)&lt;br /&gt;yellllooowww butterflies is where it at.</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/10737.html</comments>
  <lj:music>tom petty</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>peaceful</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/10164.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Tue, 30 May 2006 15:37:50 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>HOLDING IDEAS:</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/10164.html</link>
  <description>HAIR FOR PROM:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;http://thumb.shutterstock.com/photos/display_pic_with_logo/1109/1109,1105017250,1.jpg&quot;&gt;http://thumb.shutterstock.com/photos/display_pic_with_logo/1109/1109,1105017250,1.jpg&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.theage.com.au/ffximage/2005/09/22/tyra_narrowweb__200x372.jpg&quot;&gt;http://www.theage.com.au/ffximage/2005/09/22/tyra_narrowweb__200x372.jpg&lt;/a&gt;</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/10164.html</comments>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/9449.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Sat, 20 May 2006 14:01:48 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>THATS STTOOOOPID MOOOVIE!!!</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/9449.html</link>
  <description>Uh.... with the weird guy... that has to do with the llama being named tina!?&lt;br /&gt;ANYHOW!!! tripped acid with meg last night hahaha fucking hilarious.&lt;br /&gt;Whens the next time!? GWAR ON DVD... = CHA-OS</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/9449.html</comments>
  <lj:music>led zep</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>indescribable</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/9088.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Thu, 18 May 2006 03:13:54 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Why do we rule?? anyone!?</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/9088.html</link>
  <description>&lt;a href=&quot;http://photobucket.com&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;&lt;img src=&quot;http://i16.photobucket.com/albums/b50/ThyFierykisS/meandmeghaha.jpg&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; alt=&quot;Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting&quot;&gt;&lt;/a&gt;</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/9088.html</comments>
  <lj:music>Close to me The Cure</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>high</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/8036.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Mon, 08 May 2006 05:18:53 GMT</pubDate>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/8036.html</link>
  <description>Yea so this weekend fucking rocked. thanx to bruce &amp;lt;3 amazing guy.&lt;br /&gt;I dont rmemeber friday.. but i got fucked up all 3 nights this weekend.&lt;br /&gt;but than aagain when arnt i fucked up.. but the highlight... def bruce &amp;lt;3&lt;br /&gt;hes such a hansome awesome guy. and i havent stopped smilin since..:)&lt;br /&gt;hopefully things will work out.. cos i cant lose this one.</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/8036.html</comments>
  <lj:music>LED ZEP</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>high</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/7749.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Fri, 05 May 2006 23:01:58 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>SOMEONE PLEASE GO WITH ME!!!</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/7749.html</link>
  <description>Thu, 06/01/06&lt;br /&gt;08:00 PM Radiohead&lt;br /&gt;  Tower Theatre&lt;br /&gt; Upper Darby, PA More Info&lt;br /&gt;on sale:&lt;br /&gt;Sat, 05/06/06 10:00 AM  &lt;br /&gt;Fri, 06/02/06&lt;br /&gt;08:00 PM Radiohead&lt;br /&gt;  Tower Theatre&lt;br /&gt; Upper Darby, PA More Info&lt;br /&gt;on sale:&lt;br /&gt;Sat, 05/06/06 10:00 AM  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;SOMEONE PLEASE GO WITH ME I HAVE TO GO!!!!!!</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/7749.html</comments>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/7373.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Fri, 05 May 2006 15:20:16 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>its been a short but crazy and random week</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/7373.html</link>
  <description>monday... im not so sure on what happend... prolly hung with the girls..&lt;br /&gt;maybe stayed in... tuesday i had work afterwards i might have went out or&lt;br /&gt;went to jorges for a little i think i ended up chillin with julia and lee&lt;br /&gt;over sonnys too later that night wednesday stayed in for a little than&lt;br /&gt;went out.. thursday.. aka yesturday was acctually a good day for me&lt;br /&gt;went to school after homeroom went to the cafe cos i went to six flags..&lt;br /&gt;amazing i rode kindom kod??? meh.. it wasnt scary.. I shud kick myself&lt;br /&gt;tho for gettin worried and thinkin so. hung out with the ladies the whole&lt;br /&gt;time.. there was this one pretty cute guy i been eye&apos;in anytime i saw him&lt;br /&gt;which was acctually more than i expected told this one girl cos they&lt;br /&gt;kept buggin me to go talk to him but i couldnt.. she went over for me&lt;br /&gt;and they ended up knowin eahcother haha so i guess i lucked out&lt;br /&gt;he gave me a stuffed velvety flower and we swapped numbers.. adorabal&lt;br /&gt;he lives in gloucester tho.. which is also not to far he went there also&lt;br /&gt;for som,e school trip.. now were juss textin n makin a plan or a day to&lt;br /&gt;hang out.. it&apos;d be cool if things worked out..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;but yea.. thats for now..</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/7373.html</comments>
  <lj:music>radiohead</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>exhausted</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6908.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Sun, 30 Apr 2006 20:55:28 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>juss another crazy weekend</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6908.html</link>
  <description>friday ate some bombs... haha people were all over and i was&lt;br /&gt;wearing angel wings my hat glasses and my big bowa haha&lt;br /&gt;i stayed up all night got no sleep untill saturday night&lt;br /&gt;ealr sat went to ocean city for a little and walked the boardwalk&lt;br /&gt;it was sooo windy n cold.. haha we stayed for like an hour...&lt;br /&gt;and blazed on the way up there.. today went to delware trip&lt;br /&gt;and juss chillin.. haha i love having the BEST couple days&lt;br /&gt;afterwards... i feel soo encountroll of everthing..</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6908.html</comments>
  <lj:music>fiona apple</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>sore</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6610.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Sat, 29 Apr 2006 13:14:52 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>ooh</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6610.html</link>
  <description>ooh i have the shakes right now.. n chills...&lt;br /&gt;meh. lastnight was cool haha. :) fun timesssss&lt;br /&gt;anyhow shore a little today.. work at 5&lt;br /&gt;than hopefully doin somethin afterwards..</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6610.html</comments>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6343.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Fri, 28 Apr 2006 21:31:25 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>weeks been crazy</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6343.html</link>
  <description>so i got in trouble for smokin on school grounds///&lt;br /&gt;cos i smoke and everything.. and i had to wait in the office till&lt;br /&gt;after 3rd period. later that day i smoked with mkhail and mike d&lt;br /&gt;at the trussle... of caurse i had work.. alotta shit did happend&lt;br /&gt;this week.. but i completely.. dont even remember..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;but anyway... yea.. talk bout drugged out weekend...&lt;br /&gt;im eating bombs tonight and taken shrooms tomm night..&lt;br /&gt;who wants to chill??</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6343.html</comments>
  <lj:mood>good</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6006.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Fri, 28 Apr 2006 15:49:36 GMT</pubDate>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6006.html</link>
  <description>so i have a sat school next sat....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;man its been a crazy week... i cant update now</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/6006.html</comments>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/5727.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Tue, 25 Apr 2006 15:38:44 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Moo mooooooooo</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/5727.html</link>
  <description>Well yesturday after school wasnt so bad..&lt;br /&gt;walked home watched t.v took a nap... tiff called.&lt;br /&gt;quad pod time. i cleaned the ferret cage. played&lt;br /&gt;catch out on the cougars field with us and sean and brooke.&lt;br /&gt;haha collected paint balls and squirted them at eachother&lt;br /&gt;yea.. we&apos;re on crack. got my check cashed it cos i have like&lt;br /&gt;a million class trips (only to make up for not goin on&lt;br /&gt;senior trip and I cant bare another day in this hell hole.&lt;br /&gt;So I have.. Six flags, River Sharks and some other weird trip&lt;br /&gt;in philly. Anyhow.. Julia dropped me off at home.. ate dinner&lt;br /&gt;did the dishes haha (I neverr do em) cleaned my whole room..&lt;br /&gt;and called it a night.. as I was goin to sleep Tiff called me&lt;br /&gt;to go to the diner round.. 11:30-12 haha with her&lt;br /&gt;drunk ass.. saw john.love. :-/ and greg and their other&lt;br /&gt;friend.. we sat next to em. I didint  really say anything..&lt;br /&gt;what could I say?? than Julias stopped in. ATE. then julia&lt;br /&gt;dropped me off.. than finally went to sleep..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Today.. not sure on what I could be doing.. I have work&lt;br /&gt;at 6 tonight... .. so whoever wants to hang out or Ill&lt;br /&gt;end up doin something before perhaps.. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tuesdays now (Of caurse not today) Me and Tiff are taken&lt;br /&gt;belly dancen lessons haha I really cant wait! its $10&lt;br /&gt;a lesson. My stomache will be in shape and I&apos;ll know how&lt;br /&gt;to moooooove it ;) haha. But yea.. thats whats new in&lt;br /&gt;the world of me.. haha.</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/5727.html</comments>
  <lj:music>Im still inlove with you boy - Sean de Paul</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>accomplished</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/5461.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Mon, 24 Apr 2006 15:37:37 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>ehh...</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/5461.html</link>
  <description>todays so far is a sad depressing day seemingly..&lt;br /&gt;I guess because Im in school.. I cant wait to leave&lt;br /&gt;this place.. and the wheather so blaaah.. Atleast its&lt;br /&gt;quad pod night. maybe the day will get better... Im&lt;br /&gt;so tired.. and wishin on lots of things i know will&lt;br /&gt;never happend.. I wish this person would find it in&lt;br /&gt;themselves not to be an asshole anymore.. and acctually&lt;br /&gt;talk to me.. get things out.. off my shoulders.. be free.&lt;br /&gt;but.. eh who am I to ask of anything? I juss try and be&lt;br /&gt;the nice one.. I get tired of it but.. why do I waste&lt;br /&gt;my time on this useless person? they should be nothin&lt;br /&gt;especially after what they&apos;ve done to me.. but I guess&lt;br /&gt;I can help that I have a heart.. O well.. I wish..&lt;br /&gt;I just wish.. they would talk things out with me.. you&lt;br /&gt;know it doesnt have to mean anything... I hate guys.. :(</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/5461.html</comments>
  <lj:music>Black eyes peas</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>melancholy</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/5167.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Mon, 24 Apr 2006 01:44:48 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Update</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/5167.html</link>
  <description>Wow VERY EVENTFUL AWESOME CRAZIEST SPRING BREAKE EVER&lt;br /&gt;I love liiife I really love life. :) Nothin could bring it down&lt;br /&gt;satrurday I kicked ass in go karts mwahahahahahaha.  yea im&lt;br /&gt;gonna be an asshole driver watch out rode.. tiff n julias&lt;br /&gt;been helpin me study for my drivers test.. w00w00 cant wait..&lt;br /&gt;i been drinkin smokin doin this doin that all week.. CRAZY&lt;br /&gt;Its gonna be hell wakin up tomm for school.. for now FUCK&lt;br /&gt;School.. its a whole joke from here Im not doin shit..&lt;br /&gt;unless I HAVE to... like HAAAAAVE to.. Im gonna sleep&lt;br /&gt;party.... get my permitt, be with mah girls registure&lt;br /&gt;for stenography cos classes start in sept.. and Im gonna party&lt;br /&gt;from now till this septemeber.. life couldnt be better...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;bout the guy situation.. Im not gonna give two shits.. u get some&lt;br /&gt;u love some.. if I ever get a chance to be with that kid again..&lt;br /&gt;im gonna wait for him.. and ill tell him staryight out sorry.&lt;br /&gt;cos i was an asshole.. i guess it took me untill i lost him&lt;br /&gt;to notice.. meeeh.. till now.. im partyin&apos;</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/5167.html</comments>
  <lj:music>Just walk away?</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>high</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/4851.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Sun, 23 Apr 2006 00:46:53 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>ok alrighttttt</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/4851.html</link>
  <description>last night of sprong break&lt;br /&gt;who wants to derink with me??&lt;br /&gt;gotta looove it. this spring break killed! :)</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/4851.html</comments>
  <lj:music>311</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>high</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/4426.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Thu, 20 Apr 2006 14:28:19 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>HAPPY 4:20!!!!!!</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/4426.html</link>
  <description>TRASHED EVERYNIGHT SO FAR...&lt;br /&gt;cept leeanns b-day.. but other than that SMOKED.&lt;br /&gt;I dont think I ever been trashed soo much and &lt;br /&gt;like straight. Re-Diculous. Its been excitien&lt;br /&gt;cept one night when I had work. Watched &quot;Broken&lt;br /&gt;Back palace&quot; with the gay cowboys eating puttin&apos;&lt;br /&gt;haha. i love my friends. so... whose up for drinkin&lt;br /&gt;the rest the week I got off work all this week/weekend?&lt;br /&gt;gimme a call niggaz</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/4426.html</comments>
  <lj:music>Lovefool - The Cardigans</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>happy</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/4138.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Mon, 17 Apr 2006 14:15:10 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>update</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/4138.html</link>
  <description>last night TRASHED.&lt;br /&gt;woke up with texts and calls from people&lt;br /&gt;and i dont even remember..all i rmemeber is drinkin&lt;br /&gt;40&apos;s haha with everyone. well happy fuckin&apos; easter&lt;br /&gt;I think I like pissed 3 ex-boyfriends off haha&lt;br /&gt;it was fun. uh... i wish i could remember right now..&lt;br /&gt;haha oh wel tiffs cousin thinks im hott?? i guess thats&lt;br /&gt;excitein news? haha. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;other day... saturday?? drank was the definition of DRUNK.&lt;br /&gt;I wasnt makin an ass I just couldt talk to save my life.&lt;br /&gt;I ended up passing out on caseys couch. woke up and dont&lt;br /&gt;remember how i fell asleep or anything. all i rmember&lt;br /&gt;is i woke up on easter.. walked all the way from roberts&lt;br /&gt;pool to my house nice fresh air and when i got home&lt;br /&gt;i had the worst head ache ever and puked my heart out&lt;br /&gt;didint see that comming haha. anyway what a great easter&lt;br /&gt;weekend. who wants to drink all this week&lt;br /&gt;SHORE PARTY IN COUNT DOWN :5 days</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/4138.html</comments>
  <lj:music>some gwen stefani shit</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>drunk</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3895.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Sat, 15 Apr 2006 16:16:02 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>lastnight</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3895.html</link>
  <description>ended up not havin the hojo.&lt;br /&gt;woke up at julias went to alex k&apos;s to get jules hair done n stuff&lt;br /&gt;julias dropped me offgotta shower shaved everything haha. (i had to add that yea)&lt;br /&gt;called up tiff picked me up was with brooke leeann n tiffie smoked fucked round&lt;br /&gt;tried to get a hojo but her boy bailled out.. got some alchole. picked up casey :)&lt;br /&gt;drank a little at tiffs got julia. went to the diner cos it was the last day to&lt;br /&gt;smoke in a public place.. (EVERYONE WAS THERE) EVERYONE. haha. someone was there&lt;br /&gt;haha. went to jorges for a little the guys we&apos;re there. chilled with the usual&lt;br /&gt;than ended up sleepin over julias with casey and sean drinkin till i past out&lt;br /&gt;not bad.. alright i need to drink again tonight &apos;cos I am dirnkin non stop this&lt;br /&gt;whole spring break. i havent lived it sober n- not bout too.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;tonight i gots work till late ill prolly end up drinkin with julia&lt;br /&gt;i still gotta 40 in the fridge. so. call me up if ya wanna drinkin buddy&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star&lt;br /&gt;To pray on, or wish on, or something like that&lt;br /&gt;I was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy&lt;br /&gt;Whose reality I knew, was a hopeless to be had&lt;br /&gt;But then the dove of hope began its downward slope&lt;br /&gt;And I believed for a moment that my chances&lt;br /&gt;Were approaching to be grabbed&lt;br /&gt;But as it came down near, so did a weary tear&lt;br /&gt;I thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag&lt;br /&gt;Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills&lt;br /&gt;&apos;Cause I know I&apos;m a mess he don&apos;t wanna clean up&lt;br /&gt;I got to fold &apos;cause these hands are too shaky to hold&lt;br /&gt;Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love&lt;br /&gt;And I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb&lt;br /&gt;Looking for a little hope&lt;br /&gt;Baby said he couldn&apos;t stay, wouldn&apos;t put his lips to mine,&lt;br /&gt;And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope&lt;br /&gt;I said, &apos;Honey, I don&apos;t feel so good, don&apos;t feel justified&lt;br /&gt;Come on put a little love here in my void,&apos; he said&lt;br /&gt;&apos;It&apos;s all in your head,&apos; and I said, &apos;So&apos;s everything&apos; &lt;br /&gt;But he didn&apos;t get it I thought he was a man&lt;br /&gt;But he was just a little boy&lt;br /&gt;Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills&lt;br /&gt;&apos;Cause I know I&apos;m a mess he don&apos;t wanna clean up&lt;br /&gt;I got to fold &apos;cause these hands are too shaky to hold&lt;br /&gt;Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love&lt;br /&gt;Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills&lt;br /&gt;&apos;Cause I know I&apos;m a mess he don&apos;t wanna clean up&lt;br /&gt;I got to fold &apos;cause these hands are too shaky to hold&lt;br /&gt;Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3895.html</comments>
  <lj:music>Fiona apple</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>hungry</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3659.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Fri, 14 Apr 2006 14:51:25 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>way to start off spring break</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3659.html</link>
  <description>well yesturday.. tiffie picked me up smoked with the quad-pod and schaale haha. than tiff went to class&lt;br /&gt;did a little shoppin with julia n leeann got some more bohemian lookin things. leeann went to the movies&lt;br /&gt;with mark so.. me n julia ended up drinkin over kacey n seans. ended up passin out round 3.. than&lt;br /&gt;john carp came n complete chaos. iunno wtf happend./. but kacey fled n john was tyrin to beat him&lt;br /&gt;with a baseball bat.. havent seen or talked to kacey hopefully hes ok. ryan had to stay at the apt.&lt;br /&gt;but julia me n sean ended up stayin over julias.. way to start off spring break woo..woo.. &lt;br /&gt;and of caurse i forgot to add me n julia came up n saw mike workin :) haha&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;day b3fore..had work befoer than hung out with tiffie went walkin on haddon ave got somehtin to eat..&lt;br /&gt;blah blah.. eh days goin good. cant wait till 22nd. quad pods goin to shore.. i think we&apos;ll ended up&lt;br /&gt;stayin at wildwood and goin to ocean city maybe who knows... &lt;br /&gt;but i gotta go.. juss a small update...&lt;br /&gt;THIS SPRING BREAKS GONNA ROCK&lt;br /&gt;Im drinkin every night so call if u wanna.. im up for it.</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3659.html</comments>
  <lj:music>Radiohead</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>awake</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3570.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Wed, 12 Apr 2006 15:25:57 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>boo</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3570.html</link>
  <description>ok. im bored. very bored. in school. this SUX. I havent checked my myspace.&lt;br /&gt;i cant &apos;cos this school blows. theres really nothing to do. i cant even&lt;br /&gt;look at picture on these journal things.&lt;br /&gt;Well... I didint to much yesturday.. I juss straightend my whole room..&lt;br /&gt;got some wash done and then took a nap till I had to walk to work.&lt;br /&gt;after that I stopped by jorges for a little.&lt;br /&gt;same thing today it looks.. work at 6. i think i may chill with meggers&lt;br /&gt;untill i got work. till&apos; than I guess Im juss chillin.. dont get off&lt;br /&gt;till 10:30 maybe I&apos;ll get to get out early. maybe see whats good over kaceys.&lt;br /&gt;maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3570.html</comments>
  <lj:music>Paper Bag - Fiona Apple</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>creative</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3245.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Tue, 11 Apr 2006 15:45:51 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>..</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3245.html</link>
  <description>Speak no evil, Hear no evil, See no evil</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/3245.html</comments>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/2854.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Tue, 11 Apr 2006 15:28:55 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>krimpet stuffer</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/2854.html</link>
  <description>So. yesturday wasnt bad.... came home for a little walked my mother&lt;br /&gt; somewhat to her new job (still CVS but diff. location) the one in&lt;br /&gt; haddon twp. anywho. since I had to get my check anyway.. and get a&lt;br /&gt; few  feminin shit. as I was up paying and findin change  in my purse&lt;br /&gt; I accidently pulled out a totem pole in  a weed bag and my mom flipped&lt;br /&gt; out.. she got a little  sad but like I re-assured her it was nothing&lt;br /&gt; she  kinda knows things but... hopefully.. iunno.. i dont  think she&lt;br /&gt; cares now or she does... but.. eh... anywho.. uh.. ok so I walked up&lt;br /&gt; to Friendlys after to get my check my schedual and stuff called julias&lt;br /&gt; to let her know the quad-pod and a few other people are requestion off&lt;br /&gt; on the 22nd for the shore together than had kelsey make me a choculate&lt;br /&gt; strawberry andbanana topping milkshake.. hmmmmmm heaven..than julia&lt;br /&gt; stopped in to get her check and I was like YESS!! haha we got some&lt;br /&gt; food and ate out on the benches in the shopping center while kelsey&lt;br /&gt; n michelle were out on their smoke break haha it was nice out. than&lt;br /&gt; when we left went to julias so she can getta shower.. than went to cash&lt;br /&gt; and deposit our checks julia let me drive all around colllingswood haha&lt;br /&gt; drove past all our ex&apos;s and crushes house cos we&apos;re such girls like that.&lt;br /&gt; round 5 we had to go get her car fixed at some d00ds house in pennsauken&lt;br /&gt; than we went to a park chilled swung. when she was done we met up with&lt;br /&gt; tiff and brooke at tiffs smoked of caurse.. tiff has this idea to print&lt;br /&gt; out this bulleton on myspace &quot;things to do in walmart&quot; and we did them&lt;br /&gt; all cept the tomatoe sauce trailed to the bathroom haha. I set off all&lt;br /&gt; the alarm clocks so theyd all go off at the same time I asked if I could&lt;br /&gt; put a lint rollar on lay-away instead of M&amp;m&apos;s haha brooke and i put&lt;br /&gt; condoms in almost everyones shopping cart when they wernt lookin haha&lt;br /&gt; than tiff told one the employees that there was a code 3 in the house-ware&lt;br /&gt; department the lady was like what? tiff said a code 3.. and shes like&lt;br /&gt; iunno what that is where is it? and tiff said in the house-ware department&lt;br /&gt; haha and the lady juss gave her a weird look haha. their was other things&lt;br /&gt; but I forget.. haha than we ate at the subway than I did a little shopping..&lt;br /&gt; I got some bohemian lookin things.. &apos;cos I&apos;m def. taken a liken interest&lt;br /&gt; to that. than we juss went back to tiffs.. fucked round than ended up&lt;br /&gt; chillin with kacey and sean over at their crib.. got tired.. than juss&lt;br /&gt; went home to sleep...today.. well.. i think im gonna go home.. take a nap..&lt;br /&gt; wake up for a little clean my room or starighten it &apos;cos it needs it..&lt;br /&gt; than I got work at 6.. unless someone  wants to do somehtin a little before..&lt;br /&gt; who knows..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;ps. For my next pet of choice. I def. want a chinchilla. :)</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/2854.html</comments>
  <lj:music>that &quot;get down girl go ahead get down&quot; song</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>giggly</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/2780.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Mon, 10 Apr 2006 15:48:58 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>So...</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/2780.html</link>
  <description>I sorta forget what I did yesturday so let me rememeber...&lt;br /&gt;Oh yea.. I woke up from baby eaters round 2:30pm.&lt;br /&gt;julia left for work and Tiff came over we chilled than&lt;br /&gt;dropped kacey off at work. It was a pretty good day. I felt&lt;br /&gt; nice.I dont really rmember what I did before but I do remember&lt;br /&gt; going.Awesome enough Julia was workin and I had to train&lt;br /&gt; mike  (the cute kid)that me and julia usually sorta fight&lt;br /&gt; over. haha  it was a good crew I love when db&apos;s manager.&lt;br /&gt; well me and julia  did buncha whip its as usual.. this time&lt;br /&gt; i could feeel everything .. or wait.. was that friday... dont&lt;br /&gt; rmemeber my days been getin&apos; all mixed together.. plus I do the&lt;br /&gt; same thing everynight work realy hard fuck around eat and do&lt;br /&gt; whip its.. haha I forget eveyrthing.. anyway All i rmember is&lt;br /&gt;feeling&apos; every sound and my head was goin whamp whamp. haha and&lt;br /&gt;my whole body went numb. i think doin&apos; them is my personal fav.&lt;br /&gt;drug of choice even tho its not really a drug.. I just love&lt;br /&gt;how fucked up I get for it but only last like 5 mins. ahem anyway&lt;br /&gt;after I was done Julia dropped me off, called Tiff forgot we were&lt;br /&gt;going to shamp0o and did. That was lots n lots of fun.. I had a&lt;br /&gt;stalker.. eeeew. and mainly went in between rooms alot the time&lt;br /&gt;like even in the hiphop room.. man.. man my ass was grabbed like&lt;br /&gt; 50 million times...lemme tell you how those &lt;br /&gt;guys dont dance they juss hump the shit outta you.. I hated that&lt;br /&gt;room.. than when it was over round 2am I felt sick.. and I juss went&lt;br /&gt;home layed in bed till I finally passed out.. earlier this morning &lt;br /&gt;was hell gettin up but I managed.. I acctually woke up pretty early&lt;br /&gt;than what I usually would on a basis of he last minute dealie. &lt;br /&gt;Well todays monday and the quadpods doing something, not sure what..&lt;br /&gt;but I know one thing is phatties haves 25 cent wings on mondays..&lt;br /&gt;so were all gonna have a walk from julias to phatties. maybe we&apos;ll&lt;br /&gt;so something at the park. ::shrugs:: oh man.. 2nd p.d back to gym&lt;br /&gt;no more health.. now Im doin tae-bo O..M...G... KILL ME.. haha&lt;br /&gt;it was fun.. &apos;cos I cant do shit. well least we all look like assholes.&lt;br /&gt;well I have ntohing else to say.. so... chowwwwwwww&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Plus I&apos;m in an EXTREMLEY GOOD MOOD TODAY..&lt;br /&gt;(Dont ask why, &apos;cos I myself dont know) esp since&lt;br /&gt;it was a late night.. my ass shud be cranky..</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/2780.html</comments>
  <lj:music>Fiona Apple</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>awake</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
<item>
  <guid isPermaLink='true'>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/2392.html</guid>
  <pubDate>Sun, 09 Apr 2006 21:42:08 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>This weekends</title>
  <link>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/2392.html</link>
  <description>well friday i got really fucking wasted at half way with meg n lucia got really wasted watch a band or two.. haha i acctually went in to mosh i havent donme that since like the st. marks shows in okalyn haha. almoast dont rmemeber shit.. i asked someone to mary me and he said no :( o well.. but i dont care anymre for him. i knew id get over it. anyhow.. i like puked my heart out and i havent done that in like 2 years.. i barelty ever PUKE and I did haha. than i ran into little matt than i rode with him to a true ass big humungus rich boy frat party.. sooo many drunk people and like strobe lights in one room it was like in a movie. anyhow. then as i was passing out i ended up goin to jorges in oaklyn then tiff picked me up after chillin there than went to seans... and leeaan made out with mark :) haha. (juss to add) oh dan saturday. haha anywho.  than past out n woke iup went n slept over tiffs&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;saturday woke up.. internet till tiff woke up.. smoked.. ate.. than took a tiny minature rode trip to delaware for a bogie run.  than i had work :( omg haha did sooo many wha&apos;whas with julia (whip its) haha I could feel eveery sound i heard it was soo weird so typical cos julias like STEPH DONT FISH OUT ON ME STEPH DONT FISH OUT!! haha and all i could do was laugh.. ans she went away nervously haha. nick n joe juss sat there laughin at me.. assholes.. than went home to geta shower round 1am went to babyeaters and kaceys.. drank and took a totem pole... wow i past right the fuck out... than i juss ended up sleepin over kaceys. now im woke up tiff picked me up smoked n with leeaan n tiff. now im juss really stoned and gotta get ready for work after i check my myspace email aim this n that. Cyaaaaaaa</description>
  <comments>http://steph-suicide.livejournal.com/2392.html</comments>
  <lj:music>Kanye West- Touch the sky.</lj:music>
  <lj:mood>high</lj:mood>
  <lj:security>public</lj:security>
</item>
</channel>
</rss>
